I've been thinking a lot lately about my testimony as a Christian. Oh, I'm not talking about my salvation testimony (which, by the way, you can read from my sidebar to the right). My salvation is secured, and to have a real, true salvation testimony is my greatest (and I mean greatest!) and only treasure. I'm talking about whether or not people know I'm a Christian by the way I live my life... and I want them to. So I did a little search; not a Google search; no, not that. I searched my heart. I thought about the times when my love for the Lord and for others has been the very theme of my existence. Then (oh painful moment) I thought about the times when self was in control. And I wondered... What on earth would cause self to sit on the throne of my heart? Read on...
My name is Pride. I am a cheater.
I cheat you of your God-given destiny…
Because you demand your own way.
I cheat you of contentment…
Because you “deserve better than this.”
I cheat you of knowledge…
Because you already know it all.
I cheat you of healing…
Because you’re too full of self to forgive.
I cheat you of holiness…
Because you refuse to admit when you’re wrong.
I cheat you of vision…
Because you’d rather look in the mirror than out a window.
I cheat you of genuine friendship…
Because nobody’s going to know the real you.
I cheat you of love…
Because true love demands sacrifice.
I cheat you of greatness in Heaven…
Because you refuse to wash another’s feet on earth.
I cheat you of God’s glory…
Because I convince you to seek your own.
My name is Pride. I am a cheater.
You like me because you think I’m always looking out for you.
Untrue.
I’m looking to make a fool of you.
God has so much for you, I admit, but don’t worry…
If you stick with me—you’ll never know.
A humbling little essay, isn't it? But that's okay! Because that's what I need to be; that's what I want to be. Because it's never really been about me in the first place.
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